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Lose People, Lose Yourself

by Feed Me To The Forest

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I'll Be Right There 01:12
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Look man, I know the past few months have been a little harder than they used to. And sometimes you don't really feel like getting up in the morning. But most days the thought of not getting up at all is just a little bit scarier than nothing. So get up. You're gonna go to the job that's been draining you. And you're gonna go talk to the people that really wouldn't give a shit if you showed up the next day or not. Cause you can't fathom the alternative. Even if it's enticing to think about all the people that would or wouldn't show up to your funeral. You're all talk. I'll see you tomorrow.
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I'm Always The Problem, You're Always a Mistake 03:57
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The smile on my face Is just a mask To keep everyone from wanting to ask If I'm okay If I've found someone new It's a disguise She always seems to see right through So I'll think About that sunset Over the New York skyline About that night You told me I was good enough And I believed you And I believed you So if I'm being honest Most days I'm a mess (I'm always the problem) I spend most of my time just lying around Sewn into my bed (You're always a mistake) My lungs are empty And it's getting harder to breathe My fuse is getting shorter And I'm finding an excuse to leave It's funny how Creative we become When we're cold and heartbroken I told you You were something special That you didn't feel like the rest And you believed me So if I'm being honest Most days I'm a mess (I'm always the problem) I spend most of my time just lying around Sewn into my bed (You're always a mistake) My lungs are empty And it's getting harder to breathe My fuse is getting shorter And I'm finding an excuse to leave I'm always an excuse
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Lose People, Lose Yourself 03:26
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These wounds are so familiar They’ve come back to play Leaving nothing but an empty space Smiling’s just a memory Eye staring through the wall Ears never listening A constant ringing in my brain On the other line are dial tones Your voice no longer resides In the air we use to share, there’s nothing but a fever dream Once more I’ll call you from the comfort of my bed Saying how I can’t sleep with these ghosts in my head How these hands can’t stop all the pieces from breaking My hands can’t save a god damn thing I’m sorry I can’t shake This overbearing weight That I can’t look past the past and accept what I can’t change The ghosts in the corners of my eyes won’t let me sleep I’m sick of fighting off These things I can’t forget How can I sleep at night when they’re screaming in my head It’s all in my head Once more I’ll call you from the comfort of my bed Saying how I can’t sleep with these ghosts in my head How these hands can’t stop all the pieces from breaking My hands can’t save a god damn thing It’s all in my head I won’t see you in the end
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Canary in a Coal Mine 03:35
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I wish I could learn to be more selfish Maybe I’d get better for a day Put all my love into others Getting nothing back for me If I could learn to be more like you Unapologetically into yourself I’d remember how to smile Maybe learn to like me too Each hour is starting to feel like a week I spend all my days alone And you barely speak to me Am I just overthinking? So here’s a toast to the new year A year void of conversation You know I can’t find the words to speak Unless I pour some whiskey in my drink So here’s a toast to a night I won’t remember And a night you won’t forget In the morning I’ll make my way home Here’s to another year all alone Just like the empty bottles that line the walls You were once a way of coping Only replaced by nights I can’t recall In a basement full of people that came to hear me sing But no one wants to hear about how things went south So I’ll act like nothings wrong and I’ll just shut my fucking mouth Think back to when my sorrows stayed in your bedroom sheets Until that wasn’t enough and they started coming home with me So here’s a toast to the new year A year void of conversation You know I can’t find the words to speak Unless I pour some whiskey in my drink So here’s a toast to a night I won’t remember And a night you won’t forget In the morning I’ll make my way home Here’s to another year all alone All alone
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City of Ghosts 03:30
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I've spent all of my days looking for an answer in a bottle While no ones around to watch I'm drowning memories of the days and nights that make me ask the question why am I here? When there all gone. So I keep searching Always coming up empty handed Ending each night drunk numb and alone (you left me drunk and alone) I’ve become so good at turning off me feelings Everyone around me is sick and tired of hearing That I’m not healing I’m doing my best to pretend like everything’s okay But trauma never heals The pain never goes away There’s still a city of ghosts that follow me everywhere I go Even when they’re around I still feel so alone I’m always so alone So I keep searching Always coming up empty handed Ending each night drunk numb and alone (you left me drunk and alone) I’ve become so good at turning off me feelings Everyone around me is sick and tired of hearing That I’m not healing There’s a city of ghosts living in my head There's a city of ghosts that want me dead There’s a city of ghosts living in my head There's a city of ghosts that want me dead
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Last Call (feat. Melissa Cherie) 03:48
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I’ve been broken so often I can’t remember How my pieces fit back in place Each day I have to force myself up And out of this space I sleep like a dog left out in the cold Waiting for you to rescue me But the storms just to strong And no one is coming back for me Let me go I won’t come back home The fire is down to a glow But this bottle will keep me whole Time slows down As I slowly drown I don’t want to be found Just let me go My sail is full of holes And I’m drifting at sea How can I help the world When I can’t help me I’m shouting in silence cause I won’t let out The parts of me you don’t want to see I’m so sick of feeling sick I just want to be me Let me go I won’t come back home The fire is down to a glow But this bottle will keep me whole Time slows down As I slowly drown I don’t want to be found Just let me go I won’t come back home I can’t come back home I won’t come back home Just let me go
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Pressure To Self Destruct 03:21
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I gotta fucking leave this town Things will get better when I’m not around I don’t mean to be so numb but I’m drowning It’s better if I just say goodbye for now I'm use to living my life with my head in the clouds Lately all I do is bring everyone around me down Now I avoid all the pills prescribed to me Because my body is a shell And my heart is empty Those images play on the back of my eyelids While your voice calls out through the violence Telling me my love you need to grow up The world is moving on without you I’m moving on without you Now I miss the nights when you’d lay in bed And whisper until I fell asleep Too bad I was barely listening I was barely listening I spent the last few months living like a ghost No one seems to notice that I’m missing My body still comes around but my soul is elsewhere I’m plagued by a mind that won’t let it go Chasing after answers that Nobody knows The innocence has left my eyes and it’s starting to show Don’t tell me time heals everything, Cause two years later I’m just as numb and angry Those images play on the back of my eyelids While your voice calls out through the violence Telling me my love you need to grow up The world is moving on without you I’m moving on without you Now I miss the nights when you’d lay in bed And whisper until I fell asleep Too bad I was barely listening I was barely listening
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The Smell of Flowers Remind Me of Funerals 03:48
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Yesterday I fell asleep By the old oak tree Where you said your last words to me It’s kind of funny how Not much has changed It’s almost as if your life never meant anything And I know I had no control But every flower I see reminds me of funerals And I hope God has your soul But I know you’re in the ground Helping the world around me grow Yesterday I walked past your grave (walked past your grave) I saw your mom sitting there praying She could take away your pain (take away your pain) But your better now That’s what she cried (that's what she cried) Good for her I’ll blame myself until the day that I die And I know I had no control But every flower I see reminds me of funerals And I pray God has your soul But if he listens to me, it doesn’t really show Let’s just talk About Anything and everything About The things I never told anyone I’ll tell you about The job and apartment I shouldn’t have About how the only thoughts I have now are I’m not happy I’m not fucking okay Growing up was never my choice And dealing with that is harder than I expected So I guess I’ll just end this With an abrupt goodbye And thank you for everything I’ll see you around in another life Maybe then we can We can just have a… Can just sit down and..

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released October 21, 2022

All music written and recorded by Feed Me To The Forest. All music was mixed mastered and produced by Tom McCormick and Gabe Valle at Big and Tall Recording in Woodridge, New Jersey.

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Feed Me To The Forest Cliffside Park, New Jersey

Post-hardcore/Emo outfit from Northern NJ

Feed Me To Forest is:
Jimmy James Pawson - Guitar/Vocals
Bryan Antolos - Guitar/Vocals
Scott Rush - Bass/Vocals
Bryan Cacique - Drums/Trumpet/Vocals
Tate Prodigalidad - Guitar/Vocals


Past members -
Christopher Selman - Guitar/Vocals/Synth/Saxophone ... more

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