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I'll Be Right There
01:12
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Look man, I know the past few months have been a little harder than they used to.
And sometimes you don't really feel like getting up in the morning.
But most days the thought of not getting up at all is just a little bit scarier than nothing.
So get up.
You're gonna go to the job that's been draining you.
And you're gonna go talk to the people that really wouldn't give a shit if you showed up the next day or not.
Cause you can't fathom the alternative.
Even if it's enticing to think about all the people that would or wouldn't show up to your funeral.
You're all talk.
I'll see you tomorrow.
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The smile on my face
Is just a mask
To keep everyone from wanting to ask
If I'm okay
If I've found someone new
It's a disguise
She always seems to see right through
So I'll think
About that sunset
Over the New York skyline
About that night
You told me I was good enough
And I believed you
And I believed you
So if I'm being honest
Most days I'm a mess (I'm always the problem)
I spend most of my time just lying around
Sewn into my bed (You're always a mistake)
My lungs are empty
And it's getting harder to breathe
My fuse is getting shorter
And I'm finding an excuse to leave
It's funny how
Creative we become
When we're cold and heartbroken
I told you
You were something special
That you didn't feel like the rest
And you believed me
So if I'm being honest
Most days I'm a mess (I'm always the problem)
I spend most of my time just lying around
Sewn into my bed (You're always a mistake)
My lungs are empty
And it's getting harder to breathe
My fuse is getting shorter
And I'm finding an excuse to leave
I'm always an excuse
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These wounds are so familiar
They’ve come back to play
Leaving nothing but an empty space
Smiling’s just a memory
Eye staring through the wall
Ears never listening
A constant ringing in my brain
On the other line are dial tones
Your voice no longer resides
In the air we use to share, there’s nothing but a fever dream
Once more I’ll call you from the comfort of my bed
Saying how I can’t sleep with these ghosts in my head
How these hands can’t stop all the pieces from breaking
My hands can’t save a god damn thing
I’m sorry I can’t shake
This overbearing weight
That I can’t look past the past and accept what I can’t change
The ghosts in the corners of my eyes won’t let me sleep
I’m sick of fighting off
These things I can’t forget
How can I sleep at night when they’re screaming in my head
It’s all in my head
Once more I’ll call you from the comfort of my bed
Saying how I can’t sleep with these ghosts in my head
How these hands can’t stop all the pieces from breaking
My hands can’t save a god damn thing
It’s all in my head
I won’t see you in the end
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Canary in a Coal Mine
03:35
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I wish I could learn to be more selfish
Maybe I’d get better for a day
Put all my love into others
Getting nothing back for me
If I could learn to be more like you
Unapologetically into yourself
I’d remember how to smile
Maybe learn to like me too
Each hour is starting to feel like a week
I spend all my days alone
And you barely speak to me
Am I just overthinking?
So here’s a toast to the new year
A year void of conversation
You know I can’t find the words to speak
Unless I pour some whiskey in my drink
So here’s a toast to a night I won’t remember
And a night you won’t forget
In the morning I’ll make my way home
Here’s to another year all alone
Just like the empty bottles that line the walls
You were once a way of coping
Only replaced by nights I can’t recall
In a basement full of people that came to hear me sing
But no one wants to hear about how things went south
So I’ll act like nothings wrong and I’ll just shut my fucking mouth
Think back to when my sorrows stayed in your bedroom sheets
Until that wasn’t enough and they started coming home with me
So here’s a toast to the new year
A year void of conversation
You know I can’t find the words to speak
Unless I pour some whiskey in my drink
So here’s a toast to a night I won’t remember
And a night you won’t forget
In the morning I’ll make my way home
Here’s to another year all alone
All alone
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City of Ghosts
03:30
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I've spent all of my days looking for an answer in a bottle
While no ones around to watch
I'm drowning memories of the days and nights that make me ask the question why am I here?
When there all gone.
So I keep searching
Always coming up empty handed
Ending each night drunk numb and alone (you left me drunk and alone)
I’ve become so good at turning off me feelings
Everyone around me is sick and tired of hearing
That I’m not healing
I’m doing my best to pretend like everything’s okay
But trauma never heals
The pain never goes away
There’s still a city of ghosts that follow me everywhere I go
Even when they’re around I still feel so alone
I’m always so alone
So I keep searching
Always coming up empty handed
Ending each night drunk numb and alone (you left me drunk and alone)
I’ve become so good at turning off me feelings
Everyone around me is sick and tired of hearing
That I’m not healing
There’s a city of ghosts living in my head
There's a city of ghosts that want me dead
There’s a city of ghosts living in my head
There's a city of ghosts that want me dead
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I’ve been broken so often I can’t remember
How my pieces fit back in place
Each day I have to force myself up
And out of this space
I sleep like a dog left out in the cold
Waiting for you to rescue me
But the storms just to strong
And no one is coming back for me
Let me go
I won’t come back home
The fire is down to a glow
But this bottle will keep me whole
Time slows down
As I slowly drown
I don’t want to be found
Just let me go
My sail is full of holes
And I’m drifting at sea
How can I help the world
When I can’t help me
I’m shouting in silence cause I won’t let out
The parts of me you don’t want to see
I’m so sick of feeling sick
I just want to be me
Let me go
I won’t come back home
The fire is down to a glow
But this bottle will keep me whole
Time slows down
As I slowly drown
I don’t want to be found
Just let me go
I won’t come back home
I can’t come back home
I won’t come back home
Just let me go
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I gotta fucking leave this town
Things will get better when I’m not around
I don’t mean to be so numb but I’m drowning
It’s better if I just say goodbye for now
I'm use to living my life with my head in the clouds
Lately all I do is bring everyone around me down
Now I avoid all the pills prescribed to me
Because my body is a shell
And my heart is empty
Those images play on the back of my eyelids
While your voice calls out through the violence
Telling me my love you need to grow up
The world is moving on without you
I’m moving on without you
Now I miss the nights when you’d lay in bed
And whisper until I fell asleep
Too bad I was barely listening
I was barely listening
I spent the last few months living like a ghost
No one seems to notice that I’m missing
My body still comes around but my soul is elsewhere
I’m plagued by a mind that won’t let it go
Chasing after answers that Nobody knows
The innocence has left my eyes and it’s starting to show
Don’t tell me time heals everything,
Cause two years later
I’m just as numb and angry
Those images play on the back of my eyelids
While your voice calls out through the violence
Telling me my love you need to grow up
The world is moving on without you
I’m moving on without you
Now I miss the nights when you’d lay in bed
And whisper until I fell asleep
Too bad I was barely listening
I was barely listening
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Yesterday
I fell asleep
By the old oak tree
Where you said your last words to me
It’s kind of funny how
Not much has changed
It’s almost as if your life never meant anything
And I know
I had no control
But every flower I see reminds me of funerals
And I hope
God has your soul
But I know you’re in the ground
Helping the world around me grow
Yesterday
I walked past your grave (walked past your grave)
I saw your mom sitting there praying
She could take away your pain (take away your pain)
But your better now
That’s what she cried (that's what she cried)
Good for her I’ll blame myself until the day that I die
And I know
I had no control
But every flower I see reminds me of funerals
And I pray
God has your soul
But if he listens to me, it doesn’t really show
Let’s just talk
About
Anything and everything
About The things I never told anyone
I’ll tell you about
The job and apartment I shouldn’t have
About how the only thoughts I have now are
I’m not happy
I’m not fucking okay
Growing up was never my choice
And dealing with that is harder than I expected
So I guess I’ll just end this
With an abrupt goodbye
And thank you for everything
I’ll see you around in another life
Maybe then we can
We can just have a…
Can just sit down and..
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Feed Me To The Forest Cliffside Park, New Jersey
Post-hardcore/Emo outfit from Northern NJ
Feed Me To Forest is:
Jimmy James Pawson -
Guitar/Vocals
Bryan Antolos - Guitar/Vocals
Scott Rush - Bass/Vocals
Bryan Cacique - Drums/Trumpet/Vocals
Tate Prodigalidad - Guitar/Vocals
Past members -
Christopher Selman - Guitar/Vocals/Synth/Saxophone
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